He is enough.

It has been a very busy few weeks (month) around our house and it has not allowed me much time for writing.  My silence is certainly not for a lack of learning by any stretch!  In fact, the truth is quite the opposite.  (I am still waiting to find a nice digital voice recorder that I can bring into the shower with me -the only place I seem to have time to organize out my thoughts lately!) 

My husband and I continue to walk through a very difficult season and my children continue to, well, be children.  There has not been a moment for me to just "be" and I confess that at times, I have been frustrated at that.  Part of me longs to just sit and do nothing for a whole day.  No cooking, cleaning, teaching, disciplining, respecting, obeying, ,correcting, changing...  But when I really think about how that would be, I find one word comes to mind:  unfulfilled.  Yes, I would probably enjoy it for a few hours -maybe even most of the day.  When the sun sets, however, and I looked back on that day, I know that it would feel very empty without the "busyness" of my life. 

Another thing I am learning continuing to learn in this season is that God. Is. Enough.  Just when I dont think I can take any more and I am ready to stand on a mountaintop and scream to the world all my problems, He covers me in grace and strengthens my resolve to go on. 

I confess that I dont understand a lot of what we are walking through right now.  There are so many questions I have and I know that others would have the answer.  Why cant I just ask them?  Why cant I be counseled by someone?  Why wont You let me confide in someone what we are going through?  Every time I have approached someone about counseling me through this, God places a clear "no" in my path and reminds me that He is enough. 

So, I continue to walk with Him alone.

And He IS enough. 

♥